200: My middle name is: Lynn. 199: I was born in: November. 198: I am really: tired and bored. 197: My cell phone company is: AT&T. 196: My eye color is: green. 195: My shoe size is: 6.5 - 7. 194: My ring size is: 5.5 - 6? 193: My height is: 5 feet. 192: I am allergic to: Tide. 191: My 1st car was: not bought yet.. 190: My 1st job was: nothing. 189: Last book you read: Chords of Strength. 188: My bed is: extremely comfortable. 187: My pet: Webster and Lacey. <3 186: My best friend: Shannon & Nicole. 185: My favorite shampoo is: undecided. 184: AIM name: Teresaaxo0. 183: Piggy Banks are: cool… 182: In my pockets: I don’t have pockets. 181: On my calendar: I don’t keep a calendar in the Summer. 180: Marriage is: greatt!? 179: Sponge Bob can: be so cute? LOLLL. <3 178: My mom: is vacuuming. 177: The last three cd’s I bought were: Christmas from the heart, my world & my world 2.0. 176: Last YouTube video watched: Permanent December - Miley Cyrus. 175: How many cousins do you have? I have no idea. 174: Do you have any siblings: Yeah. 173: Are your parents divorced: No. 172: Are you taller than your mom? No. 171: Do you play an instrument? Nope. 170: What did you do yesterday: I don’t remember.
I Believe In:
169: Love at first sight: Not really. 168: Luck: Yeah. 167: Fate: Yes. 166: Yourself: Sometimes. 165: Aliens: A little bit, deep down inside, hahaha. 164: Heaven: Yes. 163: Hell: FGHSJ, yeah. 162: God: Yeahhhh. 161: Horoscopes: I try not to. 160: Soul mates: Maybe. 159: Ghosts: Mhm. 158: Gay Marriage: Why not? It’s love. 157: War: No. 156: Orbs: Yeah. 155: Magic: No.
Which is Better 154: Hugs or Kisses: Both. 153: Drunk or High: Uh, neither.. but I guess drunk. 152: Phone or Online: It doesn’t matter. 151: Red heads or Black haired:Black. 150: Blondes or Brunettes: Brunettes. 149: Hot or cold: Warm. 148: Summer or winter: Summer. 147: Autumn or Spring: Both. 146: Chocolate or vanilla: Vanilla. 145: Night or Day: Depends. 144: Oranges or Apples: Oranges, fsure. 143: Curly or Straight hair: Either. 142: McDonalds or Burger King: Burger King. 141: White Chocolate or Milk Chocolate: Both. 140: Mac or PC: I have a PC. 139: Flip flops or high heels: Either. 138: Ugly and rich OR Sexy and poor: Sexy and poor. 136: Hillary or Obama: Neither. 135: Burried or cremated: Errrr, I don’t know. 134: Singing or Dancing: I’m not good at either. 133: Coach or Chanel: Both. 132: Kat McPhee or Taylor Hicks: Taylor Hicks. 131: Small town or Big city: Small town. 129: Ben Stiller or Adam Sandler: Ben Stiller. 128: Manicure or Pedicure: Pedicure.. I almost passed out from a manicure ‘cause the girl cut me. 127: East Coast or West Coast: East Coast! 126: Your Birthday or Christmas: My birthday! 125: Chocolate or Flowers: Flowers. 124: Disney or Six Flags: Disney! 123: Yankees or Red Sox: Red Sox.
Here’s What I Think About 122: War: I wish there was no war. 121: George Bush: I don’t care anymore. 120: Gay Marriage: Let people marry who they want. 119: The presidential election: I don’t care. Just don’t ruin the world. 118: Abortion: I’m NOT for it, but it’s not me so..whatever. 117: MySpace: It got so boring. 116: Reality TV: I love it. 115: Parents: They’re protective, but I know it’s just ‘cause they’re looking out for me. 114: Back stabbers: Disgusting. 113: Ebay: My grandpa uses that a lot! 112: Love: Hopefully I find someone who really does love me. 111: Work: I wish there was some way to get money and not work. 110: My Neighbors: Weirdos. 109: Gas Prices: Lower them. 108: Designer Clothes: Really nicceee! 107: College: You need it. 106: Sports: Love. 105: My family: I love my family. 104: The future: better be good. :/
Last time I 103: Hugged someone: Today. 102: Last time you ate: Two hours ago? 101: Saw someone I haven’t seen in awhile: Today. 100: Cried in front of someone: I don’t remember. 99: Went to a movie theater: I was with Alex, don’t remember. 98: Took a vacation: Sherkston with Alex. 97: Swam in a pool: When I was with Alex. 96: Changed a diaper: I was 6. 95: Got my nails done: Graduation. 94: Went to a wedding: I think I was in 7th grade. 93: Broke a bone: I haven’t. 92: Got a peircing: 3 years old. 91: Broke the law: No idea. 90: Texted: Now.
MISC 89: Who makes you laugh the most: There’s a lot of people. I laugh a lot. 88: Something I will really miss when I leave home is: my bed. 87: The last movie I saw: Alice in Wonderland! <3 86: The thing that I’m looking forward to the most: Actually, Summer School.. lol. 85: The thing im not looking forward to: Summer School. 84: People call me: Teresa. 83: The most difficult thing to do is: pretending to be happy. 82: I have gotten a speeding ticket: False. 81: My zodiac sign is: Scorpio. 80: The first person i talked to today was: my mom. 79: First time you had a crush: Kindergarden. 78: The one person who I can’t hide things from: Shannon. 77: Last time someone said something you were thinking: I don’t know. 76: Right now I am talking to: Shannon, texting. 75: What are you going to do when you grow up: I don’t know, haha. 74: I have/will get a job: I will, eventually. 73: Tomorrow: Justin is coming to NY! 72: Today: was so boring. 71: Next Summer: will be better, hopefully! 70: Next Weekend: hopefully I hang out with himmm! 69: I have these pets: Lacey and Webster, 2 dogs! 68: The worst sound in the world: your parents crying. 67: The person that makes me cry the most is: I’m really emotional so anyone. 66: People that make you happy: Shannon, Nicole, him, Tyler, Family, Idk. 65: Last time I cried: Last night. 64: My friends are: great. 63: My computer is: tiny. 62: My School: is annoying. 61: My Car: is nonexistent. 60: I lose all respect for people who: lie to me. 59: The last movie I cried at was: Idk. 58: Your hair color is: Chestnut brown. 57: TV shows you watch: Anything. 56: Favorite web site: Tumblr, Formspring, Twitter, and Facebook. 55: Your dream vacation: A gorgeous hotel on a beach in Hawaii. 54: The worst pain I was ever in was: Hmm, I don’t know. 53: How do you like your steak cooked: Well-done. 52: My room is: a mess. 51: My favorite celebrity is: David Archuleta. 50: Where would you like to be: Where someone… is. 49: Do you want children: Yeah, 2 I think. 48: Ever been in love: I thought. 47: Whos your best friend: Shannon and Nicole. 46: More guy friends or girl friends: Guys? 45: One thing that makes you feel great is: when someone says I’m pretty. 44: One person that you wish you could see right now: Alex but that’s stupid, & someone elseee!. 43: Do you have a 5 year plan: No? 42: Have you made a list of things to do before you die: No. 41: Have you pre-named your children: No. 40: Last person I got mad at: Alex. 39: I would like to move to: no where. I wanna stay here. 38: I wish I was a professional: photographer.
My Favourite: 37: Candy: Twix. 36: Vehicle: Idk. 35: President: None. 34: State visited: Florida. 33: Cell Phone Provider: Idk. 32: Athlete: Derek Roy, Idk? 31: Actor: Munro Chambers. 30: Actress: Selena Gomez. 29: Singer: David Archuleta. 28: Band: Maroon 5. 27: Clothing Store: Forever 21, Charlotte Russe, Plato’s Closet. 26: Grocery Store: Wegman’s. 25: TV show: Degrassi. 24: Movie: Alice in Wonderland. 23: Website: Tumblr. Facebook. 22: Animal: Bunnies. 21: Theme Park: Disney World! 20: Holiday: Halloween and Christmas. 19: Sport to watch: Lacrosse. 18: Sport to play: Lacrosse. 17: Magazine: Seventeen, J-14, hahahaha. 16: Book: Idk 15: Day of the week: Saturday. 14: Beach: Idkk. 13: Concert Attended: David Archuleta! 12: Thing to cook: I don’t like cooking. 11: Food: Italian. 10: Restaurant: Idk. 9: Radio Station: 98.5, 101.1, 99.9. 8: Yankee Candle scent: Vanilla. 7: Perfume: Refuge. 6: Flower: Daisy or Rose. 5: Color: Pink, teal. 4: Talk Show host: Ellen. 3: Comedian: Idk. 2: Dog Breed: Shihtzu. 1: Are you ready for this survey to be over? YEP.
I’m just sitting here. The room starts spinning and shaking. What the heck is wrong with me lately? I’ve been having worse panic attacks and anxiety. Maybe the breakup, but I’ll get over it. I just want this anxiety to like disappear, PLEASE.
No one’s gonna want your nasty self. Go have fun with your drugs and not me. I hope your parents realize how much better you were with me. I hope they find out about your little drug & alcohol addictions. I’m not the immature baby now, am I? I leave my room. You don’t leave your damn basement. Big difference. I’m better off without your stupid, fucked up mind. You tell me you want to marry me, but I’m not allowed to talk to anyone but you, other friends, and especially not Shannon. Seriously?! If I truly was your best friend, like you said, you wouldn’t care who my friends were. You’re not going to get anywhere. Go have fun with your Opium. ;) I am no where as immature as you are. I don’t try getting drug dealers numbers. ”I won’t drink or smoke, babe. You’re my favorite person ever.” Joke. You’re right, you are a VERY good liar. I like your mom, a lot. Too bad she has to deal with your addictions. You’re going to get far. LOL. I wanted to break up with you, buddy! You just got boring. I mean, make an effort to be fun? Hah, I’m not fun.. you’re not either. Yeah, I’ll miss you and all the memories, but I honestly couldn’t do that to myself anymore. I felt different. You seemed different. I haven’t cried, yet. Honestly, I’m surprised, but that’s good. I don’t want to waste my tears on you, LIAR. You tried to change me, but I never tried changing you and all of your bad habits. Why change me? You’re nowhere near perfect. Oh, cool now some tears come. I’m just missing all the things we had. Everything was a lie. You lying fucking small cocksucker. I miss everything, but if you just had a little more, oh, I don’t know the word, spunk.. maybe, then I wouldn’t have felt any different. The same thing gets boring. Read this. You won’t. I’m not immature like you. I know all of your secrets that you said nobody knew. I’m assuming that was also a lie. If I was immature, I could tell EVERYONE your secrets, baby. :) You know, I’m a nice enough person not to. If I was really your “best friend”, you would have told me about your almost drug hookup. Best friends, what a joke. 2 1/2 month relationship, what a lie. Stop lying to yourself and everyone else. I don’t think you really loved me. Get over yourself, the drugs, the alcohol, the working out. It doesn’t do anything. I’m happier now, seriously. I wish you were different. Fuck. Go do something useful with your life. I’m gonna love you. You were my first love, after all. Too bad everything is gone. Nothing can be perfect. Nothing lasts forever apparently, even though “we were going to”. HA, no. Wow, get over yourself! You’re nothing special. ”You’re a bitch and a cunt.” You’re also an asshole and any other word you can think of. Get bigger… ;) oh wait. I never cared about that. Everyone else did.. too bad. Good luck finding someone else. Whore, skank. Those are the people you’ll get! Have fun! Maybe they’ll be better for you and your drugs. Have fun with your life. Don’t get caught too much! ;D
Oh, and um, after you read this, don’t talk to me because this is just me venting. It’s not to satisfy you or to be nice. It’s my feelings. <3